thankful

I've been sittin' here
tryin' to find myself
i get behind myself
i need to rewind myself
lookin' for the payback
listen for the playback..

It's hard to hang out in crowds
i guess that's the price "a friend" pays
to be some big shot like I am
out strecthed hands and one night stands
still I can't find true friend..

And when your walls come tumbling down
i will always be around..
because I believe you as a best buddy..

People don't know about the things I say and do
they don't understand about the shit that I've been through
it's been so long since I've been home
i've been gone, I've been gone for way too long
maybe I forgot all things I 'miss'
that u will "kill" me from my backside
oh somehow I know there's more to life than this

I said it too many times
and I still stand firm
you get what you put shit in my life
and people get what they deserve
still I ain't seen you
no I ain't seen you character
i've been giving just ain't been gettin'
i've been walking down that there line
so I think I'll keep on walking
with my head held high

I'll keep moving on and only God knows why..
why I still believing you as my friend after you've done all this to me..

Only God know...

How much I appreciate you as my friend…

l/n : truly hurt